Since 1990 I have had the great privilege of being a massage therapist to so many lovely and very wonderful people. These people have offered a richness in relationships that has touched me to my core. Yes, that’s since 1990 and now my hands and shoulders have told me they are ready to retire. It was a challenging and difficult decision to “hang up my hands” as one client put it, but a decision that I finally had clarity on. Now all I needed was the courage to tell each person, one by one, as they came in for their appointments.
As with all things that we hold near and dear, when we let them go, there is a feeling of loss, a sense of grief that comes with that. My throat would tighten; my eyes would tear up as I began to share my news early in the summer, a few people at a time. I contemplated the decision for a good six months before I got up enough courage to set the decision into motion. I told myself that once I told one person, it would make each person after that easier and that was true. I also decided to read through my Life Coaching Cards, the 12 cards on “Courageous” (duh!!) to remind me of the links between choice and courage.
The first steps we take towards any new chapter in our lives may be daunting, unsteady and definitely scary. When we step into the unknown we often just have to leap, knowing there is no guarantee of what the outcome will be. In our kitchen we have a great picture of our grandson Ryder when he was four years old leaping off a hay jump. At any age or stage the courage to jump can be daunting!
When I looked beyond, to the other side of the decision, what did my life look and feel like?
What opportunities would this decision offer to me?
How would I use this choice to honor my own inner truth and listen to the messages coming to me?
Now as I am nearing my retirement date of December 14, I am looking forward to more time for myself, time with my Stan the Man (who will also be down scheduling), and really looking forward to developing and enriching my coaching practice. I am not giving that up!
I’ll have more space in my life to follow through with some of my goals for my coaching practice which have been on the back burner for several years now and seeing whatever else shows up that sounds exciting. Oftentimes, when we begin to close a chapter in one area, the things we have been looking forward to doing just slide in without effort. This has already happened for me and I love the ease of opportunities showing up without effort.
When we let go we often need to strengthen that courage muscle. Lean into exercising it, little by little, until we can use its power to set change into motion.